Losers always make the winners' day

I am really tired this morning. I think I need caffeine. Yeah. That would help. I should get some. Like, a Mountain Dew or a cappuccino or an energy drink even. Yes! Sobe! W00t!

I need to start getting ready for church. Mom is making me wear my fancy outfit. *dies* I don't want to wear it. At all. And I don't even know why.

Heroes is a cool show. I enjoy it quite a bit.

Alright. I'm off to get ready for the day.

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You wash over me like rain

Tonight I'm going to go to Andy's basketball game. Emily and Andrew and hopefully Sierra and Lenna will all be there, so it will be lots of fun.

My hair is terribly frizzy and ugly today. I hate it a little bit.

I like Lifehouse.

PowerTab is kind of a cool program. I like to watch it scroll. And stuff. Yep.

This is the stupidest blog post ever. Wow.

Mara

I heard the rumors, they all were true, I miss you

People should critique those lyrics I posted because I can't quite put my finger on what I dislike about them. I like some of the imagery, but not the way all of it is presented, I think.

I'm doing pretty well. Just so everyone knows.

Mara

And I will sing you every single song

Have some random lyrics:


Point the camera just to make you smile
Speak just because I know you're listening
Pray that I don't get too carried away
We couldn't have that, now could we?
Wish on airplanes because the stars are broken
Listen to all the songs that know what I mean
My head is tired of hearing it all
So I'll turn it into words I can sing

I'll tell you everything that went on
And I will sing you every single song
And I know you'd save me from a thousand fears
If only you were here

If we ruled the world and controlled all the minds
And got everything I wanted and you wanted that too
And you rescued me from everything that ever touched me
Would we ever know what we're learning

I can't lose you 'cause you're my only one

Thank you, Hans. Yeah. I suppose you're right. I'm just tired of always wanting to bail out when things get hard or when they get uncomfortable, and of always wanting to stop trying when I don't see immediate results. I wish I had the drive to actually get something done. To start something and actually finish it for once. And not finish it because I have to, but because if I don't do it I will have quit yet again. I'm tired of wanting to quit. I'm tired of feeling lazy and stupid. I'm tired of giving up on what I want just because I have to work to get there. I'm tired of having dreams and not being willing to follow them. I'm just tired. Of everything. Of me. Because I don't have the guts to get off my butt and be who I want to be regardless of what it takes.

*sigh* Gosh, this is dumb.

Mara

Lift your gaze from the pavement

I am a horrible, cowardly quitter and that's all that there really is to say right now.

Mara

Carelessness is something I recognize when you're fast asleep and I'm in the right

Ooooh, a blog post!

So. Life is going on and such. I posted a random picture of me and Ben and Andrew, just for the sake of posting a picture. I like this picture.

The O's are still here. We're having fun. Hanging out and stuff. We went to see Flushed Away this afternoon. It was kind of stupid, quite honestly. I thought it was rather weird, but I have to say it had it's funny moments. Nothing terribly amusing, but it still made me giggle a little bit. All the same, I would probably have preferred to skip the movie and babysit like I was supposed to and make some dollars. That would have made me happier.

I need to repaint my fingernails, because the paint is coming off of them and they look silly and I keep biting them which is bad. If I paint them all of that will greatly improve, which is good. We like good things more than bad ones. Makes sense to me, at least.

There will be no band practice tomorrow. Andrew and Josh aren't going to be able to make it, and there's not a lot of point in just Ben and I getting together, so we're just not going to meet this week. Maybe Saturday or something. We need to practice a couple times before the 17th, or we'll be crappy and that would be sad and not very professional or polished and then we would look bad next to all the other bands. Not that I care that much about being professional or polished. The bummer is that Andrew might not be able to play, which would suck, because it always does when the whole band isn't together.

Sophie is attempting to play Funky Town on the keyboard.

I'm going to go see if we're going to watch Bananas or not, and if we aren't I'm going to watch Step Up, because I borrowed it from Sierra and I would like to see it.

I like God. He makes me really, really, really happy.

Sincerely,
Mara