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I have a whole 5 minutes to post this.

I had a sort of weirdly crappy day and I don't even know why. Maybe I'm just moody. Nothing terribly horrible happened, and everything that I wanted to go well went well, and was even better than I expected at times, but I am just not very happy today. *sigh* Whatever.

Practice went well. So did Little Ben's guitar lesson. And I had fun with Wendy (we went to get coffee. I made a mixed latte for the first time). School was alright. Well, actually it was really dumb a lot of the time, but yeah. I need to go now.

Mara

I'm in love with things I can't define...

Have you ever prayed for something to be taken from you and then had it taken away like you asked, and then been so distracted by the fear of it returning that it was nearly impossible to be thankful or to rejoice that it was gone?

I had an interesting conversation (if you can even call it a conversation) with a friend today. The kid just astounds me how people can try so hard to reach out to him and to show him they care about him, and he refuses to recognize it or even care, and then believes that no one cares about him and so he has no reason to care about them. I just... I can't even begin to understand how someone can be so loved and still refuse to love. People love him. It's just true. He's hilarious, he's thoughtful, he's brilliant, but he wants to be able to do whatever he wants. Ugh. I just want him to understand.

Small group was good. Kind of hard though. Today has been a weird day for me.

Sincerely,
Mara Tenille

We're all guilty of the same thing...

Andrew got the new Disciple CD. I get to borrow it while he's in New Orleans. *clap*

Today at school I made a ton of copies for one of the teachers.

All my friends are abandoning me next week. I'm not going to N.O. because a parent has to go with you if you're under 18. I'm 16. And I have no parents going. Otherwise I totally would have gone.

I'm listening to the new Relient K stuff because Hans told me to.

I should do my algebra homework. Ugh. I really don't want to.

I'm hungry again. Gosh. Why am I always so hungry? It's so stupid.

I could see myself liking this new RK music.

Today I'm practicing with Andrew for the acoustic show. Any cover ideas?

Mara

This is the correlation of salvation and love...

Ice skating is the best ever. I would seriously go every day if I could. I had a blast. I am, however, scraped and bruised all over from falling and such. *laugh* It was awesome. And after the first half hour I wasn't actually that bad at it.

Emily and I got Elise a Bonsai tree growing kit for her birthday. Is that not the best present ever? Yeah. It even tops the Zebra mug, I think.

I want to play tennis. I'm going to try and get Emily to play with me. But we'll see. We're going shopping again this afternoon because she needs stuff for New Orleans. She's going there over spring break. So is Andrew. And Andy. And bunches of other people from church.

I'm worn out from skating. *laugh*

My cold is still gross, and it's turned into a cough.

My Anberlin high hasn't worn off yet.

I need new deodorant. And not all my mascara came off in the shower. That's annoying. I also want to get prints of some pictures. I wonder if we're going to WalMart. I could get some there, I think.

Have a good day everybody!

Mara

It was just like the sun, but more like the moon...

Yesterday was good. I got to hang out with Makensie after small group for a bit, so that was nice. I like Makensie. She's awesome.

Today I have to give Little Ben a guitar lesson. I don't know what I'm going to teach him though. So it'll be interesting. I kind of never know what I'm going to teach him until I get there and see what he's gotten better at. So I'm sure it'll be fine, but I always kind of feel like I should have some sort of plan or something. *shrug* Oh well.

Lighthouse liked the food we made them last night. I got lots of compliments on my cooking, which was funny, because I generally don't cook and when I do I'm not very good at it. Lately I've been better though. I think I just need to pay more attention.

No one woke up for morning family devotions except me. That's not normal.

I really need to get to school.

Mara

...It's not that I keep hanging on, I'm never letting go...

Emily and I got to hang out today. I had a lot of fun. We had a couple good conversations and played Gabe and Wendy's Wii, which I'd never played, and had a blast. I am almost a boxing pro. *wins*

I have a horrid cold that sort of sprung up all of a sudden over the last two or three days. It's nasty.

Anberlin still rocks like your mom.

I need to go read Jonah now.

Mara

...I want to break every clock, the hands of time could never move again...

Yesterday Hans and I had a brief conversation about the future and how much things change as time goes on. So, I've been thinking about it a little bit. What does the future hold? Is there any way to really know? Is planning your future around circumstances that could change really even worth it? Do I want to go to college? If not, what am I going to do? Am I going to get married right away? Where will I live? Will I stay home? What will the relationships I have now look like in a year? In five years? How much will things change before I graduate?

Yeah. I have no idea.

No school today. No school yesterday. Tomorrow I'm going to see my friends' band play at a coffeeshop in Ames. I'm excited. I just emailed Jason because I haven't talked to him in forever. No one is online. Taylor and Hans are both out of town. I'm kind of tired but I don't feel like going to sleep. I want to get a nice notebook. A pretty one. I should do that sometime. This is a long, weird paragraph.

Sincerely,
Mara